Monkey business

Sab pagal hain,aur mai sab se bara nahi hoon!

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Posted by Alta on June 21, 2007

It hurts that I cant do anything about it,no matter what I or others do,things will never be the same,it wont get better.Frustrating to see,hard to take in.So many questions and no answers.

I feel sick deep inside,and i can not avoid it,hard to explain and i dont want to,i dont want to think about it,i dont want to deal with it.I wish i could run away.

Not wanting to be home,maybe thats the reason i am at work longer then usual these days,but whatever i do or anyone else does,its not going to help thats clear.

The one person who was the corner stone of everything,the one person i looked up to and someone who was the strength who everyone turned for everything is now….

The guilt is there,the pain is there.

I can not sit and watch i hate not being able to do anything,and knowing whatever happens it will never be the same.

I have a very good life,but it sucks right now.

Dont feel like talking today,hence i am here,need to get it out of the system.

Its not just the regular sunday night crapy feeling right now,its worse,much worse.

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